I'm hoping that in documenting this process that everything will just fall into place. That my motivation will stay, my courage will push me forward and that I will eventually reach my goal. Every Monday, I wake up saying "I'm going to push myself harder this week" and then, nine times out of ten, I just hit the snooze button. Now, don't get me wrong, in my case fit and fat go hand in hand. I can comfortably run 10k. I am running 2.5km in just under 10 minutes. I consider myself to be pretty fit. But somehow, the love of the dreaded 'treats' has watched kilo after kilo pile on until those 'sexy curves' have become lumpy, bumpy, clothes hating demons.
There came a point, today in fact, where I saw a picture of myself and cried. After a tumultuous 18 months of extreme highs (like getting married!!!) and extreme lows (if you don't know the story, I'll tell you - just ask) the stress, lack of sleep and guilty little pleasures have all caught up with me. So today, as I wiped away a few tears, I decided that on Monday I WILL begin this process. This process is more than a diet or an exercise regime. I've decided my soul needs some love. I don't doubt I am a good person with the very best intentions. Just like I don't doubt that one day I will fit back into my favourite pair of jeans. But, I need to take a well-rounded approach. So, I've started this blog and a group on facebook. I'm hoping that through blogging and having some inspirational women behind me that I will continue to be empowered and motivated. This is more than just weight loss. I've also decided to take on Oprah's famous gratitude journal and starting today am going to write in my little book one entry each day. This process is going to be a long haul... On Monday, I will show you my 'before' photo and tell you my starting weight but I'm estimating I have a little over 20 kilos to lose. I hope in feeding my soul with a little love, gratitude and reflection, I will draw strength from the positives and the positive people in my life.
I'm using this weekend to get into the right mindset - I may even take a trick from the Biggest Loser and go and buy a "dream outfit." Hopefully, on Monday I'll be in "the zone" and ready to get my mojo back. I have set myself the goal. When I reach my target weight, I am going to buy myself a pair of Jimmy Choo's - a reward for my mojo. And let it be known ladies, the first night they are taken out dancing will be a blinder!!!
So, I'm going to go and enjoy my last wine for a little while and a few pieces of chocolate and maybe even a couple of other sneaky little treats because come Monday, everything is going to change!!!
Until next time....
Michelle
There came a point, today in fact, where I saw a picture of myself and cried. After a tumultuous 18 months of extreme highs (like getting married!!!) and extreme lows (if you don't know the story, I'll tell you - just ask) the stress, lack of sleep and guilty little pleasures have all caught up with me. So today, as I wiped away a few tears, I decided that on Monday I WILL begin this process. This process is more than a diet or an exercise regime. I've decided my soul needs some love. I don't doubt I am a good person with the very best intentions. Just like I don't doubt that one day I will fit back into my favourite pair of jeans. But, I need to take a well-rounded approach. So, I've started this blog and a group on facebook. I'm hoping that through blogging and having some inspirational women behind me that I will continue to be empowered and motivated. This is more than just weight loss. I've also decided to take on Oprah's famous gratitude journal and starting today am going to write in my little book one entry each day. This process is going to be a long haul... On Monday, I will show you my 'before' photo and tell you my starting weight but I'm estimating I have a little over 20 kilos to lose. I hope in feeding my soul with a little love, gratitude and reflection, I will draw strength from the positives and the positive people in my life.
I'm using this weekend to get into the right mindset - I may even take a trick from the Biggest Loser and go and buy a "dream outfit." Hopefully, on Monday I'll be in "the zone" and ready to get my mojo back. I have set myself the goal. When I reach my target weight, I am going to buy myself a pair of Jimmy Choo's - a reward for my mojo. And let it be known ladies, the first night they are taken out dancing will be a blinder!!!
So, I'm going to go and enjoy my last wine for a little while and a few pieces of chocolate and maybe even a couple of other sneaky little treats because come Monday, everything is going to change!!!
Until next time....
Michelle
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